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A PERSONAL WALK

By: Carol Von Canon

horsebreeder7@hotmail.com

Very soon after I was saved and baptized in the Holy Spirit in 1978 someone gave me a book by Bill Britton called "Jesus the Pattern Son". That book--at least the first part of it--was sent to me by God. I cannot deny this. Because of the book, and others related to the Sonship message, the Scriptures came alive to me in an awesome way. I was very zealous in those days, and quick to tell everyone that the Rapture just wasn't going to be. We'd be here for the Tribulation--but in His Power. The meek would inherit the earth.

That message left me pretty much alone, but I didn't mind because I'd been called to "come out of her", and I knew Who had called me--beyond any shadow of a doubt. Much as happened since then. I could tell you of my own journey, and my husband's journey to the pit of Hell itself . Life has leveled off considerably in the past few years--although the Cross does remain an ever present reality.

However, lately I have found myself asking "what's the point of all this?" I've been praying for wisdom and understanding. I can see the things that are coming, and so I pray to be accounted worthy to escape these things.

In December, I received this computer as a gift, so I hungrily searched the Internet for some semblance of Truth. All I found was lies and confusion. I read a website that talked about the Rapture happening this April 14/15. There's been no witness in my spirit concerning a Rapture, but there has been a strong witness that something is about to occur, and that I'm to prepare for it.

I haven't heard a word about the manifestation of the Sons of God (Yahweh) in years. The little I did find on the Internet sounded just as foolish and confusing as everything else. I opted to believe that the Rapture was about to happen. But this brought no joy. Tonight I found your website, and read "About the Author". I'll be back to read more of what you've written tomorrow. All I want is Truth. Why is it so hard to find it?

I really haven't studied much these past few years. There have been times when I've gone weeks without even looking at my Bible. Hope deferred does make the heart sick. I have a lot of healing to do.

Carol Von Canon

I intended to write you earlier, but I've been all caught up reading your site. It's very "homey" there. I'll keep reading. I'm also printing off copies for my computer -hating husband, who's also reading what you've written with great interest. Yes, I think I've always known that I was called, but I have had my doubts lately. You're awaking a whole lot of forgotten things in me. Some of what I've read is familiar, and I'm so happy to find deeper insights into what I've already known. Some of it is very different from anything I've ever heard before, yet , I find it rings of Truth. Please allow me to reserve judgment for a while longer though. Enthusiasm has gotten me into many messes in the past. I am seeking wisdom and understanding of these things.

I know exactly what you mean about being "shell shocked". Whenever things are going smoothly, I find that I become hypersensitive to all that's going on around me, lest the "boom" fall and catch me unawares. I try not to expect troubles, but they seem to gravitate to me. As strange as this might sound, I try to avoid Christians with big Bibles since most of the troubles we've had came from such as these. Still I can truly say that whenever I cry out the Lord delivers me out of all my troubles.

We don't attend any church, and have very limited "Christian" fellowship. The fact is we keep most of what's happened to us to ourselves, unless we see that an experience we've had, and God's dealing with us in that experience, will help someone else. So I share this experience with you with the hope it might encourage you.

About 2 years ago, I had the strongest sensation that I was being "caught up". With every breathe I took, I was meeting the Lord in the very air I was breathing. When this first happened it caused me to vomit--although I did not want it ever to end. This experience lasted for about a week or so. One day I was outside, and the Lord revealed to me that the day was coming very soon that all the evil would be removed from the earth, and the land I was looking at was as the Garden of Eden before me. It seemed He was saying "Enjoy!" Our farm never looked so beautiful as it did that week. What you have written has been confirmation for me that this was truly from the Lord.

Carol